I leave for Arizona again in a little less than an hour. I’m glad I came back to New Jersey. It was worthwhile. It was grounding. It’s home. However, I realized while living here, that I can’t live here. I refuse to be that pathetic kid who lives in his parents basement crusing internet personals. I’ve asked several people to put out a hit for me if I ever show up on a Jewish Singles website. *Shudder*
Like any experience, it’s about the people. The people are what made coming home worth it. I had some amazing times, accented by even more amazing people.
I’ve been torn about where I want to go from here. I hate being torn, because I am probably the worst decision maker in the entire history of the world. I’ll just neglect making a decsion until it becomes the absolute top priority. And by that time, their isn’t that much of a choice. Usually by then it’s just accepting an outcome. I don’t want to decide, and I don’t want to accept an outcome. It’s childish, but fuck, feeling like you chose wrong sucks. Bad.
So, I’ve chosen to delay school. I know I’ll end up back there eventually, but what’s the rush. Obviously, the hope here is that if I play my cards right, returning to school will never be a neccesity.
Josh